yes, what James said is true. We are all dealing with loss here on the forum and sometimes it's even overwhelming to read everyone's losses and pain. I'm grieving over my kitty I lost in July just before her birthday. I'm sorry for the loss of your Grandma too. It's a lot of loss in just a few weeks for you. Please be kind to yourself and please be patient with your own healing. What do you like to do? Each time you feel pain, you have to connect with yourself in a positive way. Be in nature, be with friends.... run, art, anime, what is it that's positive that yo like to do? For one thing, your new little kitties and momma should bring you joy right now. Please make them a priority. They need you since you chose them. Play with the kittens, they do such funny and cute things. That should make you laugh.
The pain you feel over the loss of your Georgetta and your Grandma will be there in your heart. But know that it's normal to feel what you're feeling especially because they were major losses so close together. But promise that if you feel really suicidal like you're going to do anything, to call a suicide hotline or call for help with a friend or family member. But the kitties are good snuggling buddies when you feel pain.
Hang on. We all are hanging on here and it's helpful to post. It really is.
And.... Wow, it's so glad to know the kitties warmed up to you! Love them and hold them!
Thank you for the good advice Miasmom.
That is actually with what I'm trying to cope with right now,dealing with that pain of loss whenever it hits me in my heart. You're right though,doing positive activities helps. I do enjoy watching movies and playing guitar even. At times though the loss just hits me very hard while I am thinking,and I go to an area where it just feels so dreadful and helpless. I go into a place where I find myself wishing so strongly Georgetta was back alive,and I totally feel traumatized over the details of her death and really wish I wasn't told in such detail how she got into an accident. :( :( To think my vulnerable sweetie had to endure such a sudden and scary death is just too much for me to wrap my head around at times.
Slowly but surely these new cats have been providing some much needed joy and affection,but it's just not the same anymore.
I was surprised though lately how the Momma kitty(her name is Betty Boo Boo aka Georgia 2 btw) has been warming up to me,even jumping on my lap alot the past few days the way Georgetta use to. It's uncanny how similar they are actually in looks,and sometimes I feel it might be her again. I cried the other night when she jumped on my lap and snuggled,felt like the universe is trying to give me a second chance,but she is not Georgetta though :( Betty has licked my hand a few times too , but it's not the same like Georgetta used to do it. Also seems like she likes my roommate a little more which is weird. Boy kitties hate being on my lap though,but they have also licked me a few times.
I trip off how Betty looks alot like Georgetta actually,and I feel at times she maybe her sister. Also feel Georgetta's spirit in her sometimes.
On the bright side, I am definitely glad these new cats are here now. I think I would have a harder time dealing with these emotions of loss if they were not here and if it was just an empty house with no cats I think I would be more depressed. These new kitties antics also makes me laugh and have cheered me up,they are very funny when they play together. I guess I just have a hardtime dealing with those emotions when they hit my heart. I really wish Georgetta was still here!!!! I don't think I ever was that close to an animal before,she was so much cooler than any human to me,best friend I ever had.
Btw I'm sorry for your loss Mia :( I can only imagine how hard it must be to lose a loved one before their b-day. I do not know my new cats b-day either. They were not rescued from a shelter btw,I found them from a person on Craigslist whom I believe rescued them themselves off the street. I still need to neuter the boy cats,but will wait a few more months since they are still small babies and just barely 2 months old.