Belceboo - First of all, my deepest sympathies for the wrenching loss of your beloved Nero. Thank you for posting the pictures. He looks like a complete sweetheart, and to no longer have him by your side when you've had his presence for 11 years is a deeply traumatic absence.
Your profound love for him comes through so clearly in how worried you were for him. While you weren't able to be with him at the vet's, this does not negate all the time you cared for him and were by his side from the beginning.
I'm so sorry you're coping with his death on top of other family challenges. If you're able to find a grief support group, or a hotline to talk to someone else, you may find that helpful. We aren't meant to go through such sorrow alone, and please know that the forum is here to support you whenever you need it.
I miss my beloved cat Sammi, whom I lost almost 2 months ago, every single day. He was my special boy, the light at the end of my day, and it still hurts physically thinking about him.
I'm sending you my deepest sympathies, and peaceful thoughts. Please be compassionate with yourself; you were a wonderful friend to Nero.
Thank you so much, your words mean a lot to me, and the charm and support from the forum is helping me a lot, I don’t feel that lonely anymore. I’m really really thankful.
I’m sorry for your loss too, you can count on me if you need to talk. I’m 100% sure Sammi had the best life companion he could have ever had, you should be proud of you. He will always be with you.