hazel3
Where do I begin. I can't stop crying and blaming myself for the passing of my beautiful Great Dane- Goliath. It was a few days before Thanksgiving when he was diagnosed with DCM, Arithymia and pulmonary edema. That was a lot to swallow. I thought he just had a cold or something more simple. His vet could not treat him there so she referred us to a specialist. His first visit was much more pricier than what his regular vet charged. In addition to the 4 different kind of pills he had to start taking. But I was willing to start his treatment because I wanted him to get better. The prognosis was 6 months to a year while being on medication. A week later another visit and his heart rate was still not where it should be so the next step was to give him more meds. Goliath didn't enjoy the meds but he enjoyed his treats after he took his meds. The specialist wanted to see Goliath again to see if he was any better but since he was happy again and back to his old self. I figured I can put it off. And my husband said it was just too much money for us to keep taking him. And my younger son was also sick during the same time Goliath was diagnosed. it wasn't until a few days ago I notced he was coughing again. Then on Saturday, January 24th, Goliath was breathing hard. I knew something wasn't right. Goliath fell that day and was taking his last breath. I cant forget the image of my big baby dying in front of me. I didn't think Goliath was going to leave me that day. Now I haven't stopped crying and feeling responsible for his death. I keep thinking if I would have taken him to the doctor he would be here with me. Or if I would have taken him to the ER as soon as I saw him breathing hard. I miss him so much. He suffered and I can't forgive myself. He was such a good dog. I really thought he was going be with me longer. I was not expecting him to past so fast. He would have been six years old in March. I'm so depressed. I wish I had more time with him so I can hold him. I love you Goliath.
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Katel
I'm sorry at you losing your baby like that.   Having had two dogs die of heart disease it just sounds to me that he was probably on the max amount of medication, there is only so much they can give, so please don't feel guilty. There's only so much they can do and then sadly nature takes over.  It was your baby's time.  You loved your Goliath and he knew it and still does.   He will always be close to you.  Perhaps one day you might feel like posting some pictures of your darling boy.
Blessings,
Kate 
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hazel3
Kate, thank you so much for responding to me. Last night was my first time using this forum. I was looking forward to some advice. I feel so lost. I can't stop thinking of Goliath. I hope one day I will stop beating myself up but I don't know if I can ever forgive myself.
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