I check in to Rainbow Bridge from time to time. It helped me tremendously in the past, so I look to see if I can be of any help to anyone else. I saw your posts, and they're as raw as anything I've read on the site. I see the RB community has joined hands to support you in this most difficult time. I hope you've returned Jack to his refrigerator perch, and that you're not talking any more.
I am a long time cat daddy; 40+ years. All kinds, sizes and temperaments. Some of 'em I liked, some not so much, some I loved. But every now and then, you get one of those little suckers that gets their claws deep into your heart. Soulmate cat, is the best way I can put it. It's obvious Batli was one of those for you. I lost a soulmate a year ago, so I get what's happening with you - no need to elaborate, and words are not really adequate.
I've been reading the posts you've been getting from BNM, Tankie12, MAlcindor, Chels1424, ksfrick, Ginger4256, catiebee, Echo and all the other RB friends. The emotional support, comfort and assistance you've been getting from them has been spot on. I'm glad you've been taking it to heart. I don't have anything to add to what they've been expressing to you.
I can see in your latest post that you are still struggling. I do have a suggestion. It pulled me out of a deep darkness a year ago, and it's helped other RB-ers in a similar place.
Create a Memorial page for Batli on RB. Don't upload a few pictures of Batli and leave it at that. Write Batli's story for us. I want to know how you met, and how you bonded. How was she growing up? Was she a pistol, or a cool customer? How was she with people and other animals? Did she terrorize vets? How did she change as she aged? How was she with kids? And I know this part will be extremely difficult, but I think it's important. Please recount her last days, and where she resides today. (From your posts, I see that both of our kitties were proper cats to the end, both struggling to make it to the litter box to do their business. Cats are amazing, aren't they?)
It took time to finish my cat's bio. It was wrenching for me. Boxes of tissues. But it was cleansing. And now I visit her whenever I want. I still enjoy reading about how how I met my hot mama - and I wrote it! For me, though I'll miss her forever, it's an absolute blessing having this space to reconnect with my dear departed.
Of course there's no guarantee you'll have the same experience, but I think the odds are with you. If you do the Memorial, please let us know when it's done. It would be an honor to get to know your and Batli's story.
You have all my best wishes,