Thank you CeeCeesMom and Miasmom for your kind words. I am someone who is typically not emotional so I've really struggled to find ways to deal with these intense feelings of pain and loss. Sometimes it's hard to breathe without her. I know you understand what I'm going through and it does help to know that I am not alone in my grief. It can feel very isolating at times. I just miss my baby more than I can even express. I don't know how to put it into words. I picked up her ashes last night. It is very final. I have cried more tears than though was ever possible.
The other Pomeranian in the picture is my baby Jadyn. She's also 12 (3 months younger than Jasmine) and I got her about 6 months after Jasmine to try to help with Jasmine's separation anxiety. Having Jadyn did help. They didn't act like best friends but now I see how much Jasmine meant to Jadyn. Jasmine was very dominant and Jadyn is very passive. I realize now that the only reason Jadyn every barked at anything is because Jasmine was barking. Jadyn is now silent. She has not been eating much since the loss of Jasmine. I know she's grieving too. It's also hard for me to see these changes in Jadyn's behavior. My house is so silent it's deafening. I miss you Jasmine. I love you with all my heart baby girl.
I miss you every minute of every day, my sweet baby Jasmine.