We had to put our 4 year old boy to sleep on July 13th. Bear about two weeks ago started coughing and throwing up blood. We rushed him to the vets were they did blood test. Once results were in we found out he has IMT (Immune-Mediated Thrombocytopenia). Bear had 0 platelets and was also anemic he had blood in his BMs, loss of appetite and weak. The vet prescribed him antibiotics, stomach pills and a high dose of prednisone to bring the platelets and red blood cells up. We had to retest every 48 hours. His platelets went up to 9 but normal was 500 and his red blood cells kept dropping. We tried for two weeks but he was losing weight and getting weaker and weaker. We couldn’t stand to see him this way anymore and decided the best thing for him was to go. Before he went we let him sleep with us, hugged him and told him how much we loved him. That morning we brought him for a short walk, brought him for a long ride in the truck (he loved his truck rides) and he chewed on his favourite ball. He passed away July 13th at 9:14am. My heart broke in a million pieces and I cry myself to sleep every night. I tell myself “why him” he would of been 5 July 30th. I’m so upset and sad ...he was so young he could of lived another 7 years. He leaves behind his big sister Sally who often stares out the window waitin to come home ( crying as I’m typing all this) she misses him so much and so do we. I’m so upset I don’t want to talk to anyone, pushing my friends away and I don’t even want to come home after work that’s were the loneliness is. It’s all fresh but I need help to cope with this. I hope someone out there can help.
I miss my baby boy I wish I can go back and spend one last night with him 😭
Hi Nancy, I am SO sorry for your loss. Although my circumstances with my Teddy were different - he was also really young. It was unexpected and sudden. We tried everything we could and had to make the same awful decision. My heart goes out to you. Losing a young one feels so cruel and unfair. They had so much life to live and you lose the dream of all the things and experiences you wanted with them. It's been a month since I had to said goodbye to Teddy. I won't say it gets easier. I have daily breakdowns and it's hard when others start wanting you to return to normal and it feels like your life has stopped and been altered. I hope that you journal either here with updates or in a journal at home. I found it especially helpful to write on here whenever I needed to. Now it's almost daily. Just my thoughts and how I am doing and how Teddy's sister Eeva is doing. She also everyday looks for him and howls. It's the worst seeing her loss and her not knowing what happened to him. I'm convinced she thinks he is lost outside somewhere. I hope you help your Sally heal by distracting her and playing with her. I haven't been able to remove Teddy's food bowl or bedding. I read somewhere that the smell eventually leaves and that it may be harder for the companion animal such as my Eeva to have their stuff removed. But I don't really know whats best to be honest it's just what I have decided to do. At some point soon I will have to take his beds away. I am thinking of you and sending healing to you. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Bear was so lucky to have you. Sincerely, Emily (Teddy and Eeva's mom)
i see you in my dream my sweet little boy