Thank you all for your warm thoughts and words of encouragement. As I read each of your posts so far I again began to shed tears for my baby boy. I thank you all for taking the time to respond and offer kind words. I know that the pain will pass with time, but for now, I don't want it to. I want to miss him and I want to think about him all the time no matter how much it hurts. I don't know if that sounds weird, but it is how I am right now. When I am laying in bed at night I imagine he is still laying next to me and that brings me some comfort, but then I start to relive the moment where he passed and it tears my heart into pieces all over again. It has only been 3 days so I am not expecting much yet, and I may not get passed this completely until after the holidays. Winter was always our favorite time of the year and Freckles loved the snow. He would bury his face in it and throw it around. I remember seeing his face just covered with snow so many times and he would always be smiling. When we took him off his chemo treatments we just hoped that he would live to see another snowfall. Unfortunately that didn't happen, but hopefully, there is snow for him to play with in Heaven.
Good Night my sweet Freckles.