Thank you all. The pain seems unbearable at times. I keep thinking did I spend enough time with him. And the answer is yes. He was loved. Even when he didn' want to be petted. I love him and showed him. It's hardest in the morning because he would be sleeping outside my bedroom when I got up. And when I come home from work, he would be sitting in the chair by the door. I am drained, tired, and I have lost almost 3 pounds since Monday. I eat only because I have to not because I want to. There is a song by Kathy Troccoli that has been helping. It is called "Goodbye For Now." And that is what this is Goodbye for now. In the future I will be reunited with my Sir.