Thank you so much. She is beautiful. She is so beautful on the inside, the loveliest Soul I've known. I am missing her so much, feel very far away right now and not handling that very well the last week.
I had no anger about her death. Sometimes anger can be a part of grief. Well the last week I've felt weird, irritated and low, almost angry sometimes, annoyed, sometimes a bit panicked like I can't get my breath properly, and like I'm letting my lovely girl down by feeling this way about things....unable to handle people wanting me to cheer up and involve me in things they are doing, knocking at my door in the morning when I'm sleeping, then telling me I need to go to bed early and get up early...I want them to go away!....just wishing and wanting to be alone to drift and dream, and try to reach Misty in my heart like I could do all these weeks before -even though I was in pain! Now it's like I can't reach her sometimes and it's scaring me.
She feels a million miles away! I hate this so much. It's worse than the hard grieving the first few weeks.
I feel like the little boy in "The Snow Queen" who got a piece of ice in his heart!
I am sorry to vent like this. Misty wouldn't like this mood I'm in.
I am finding it hard to post on here nowadays. I had to change back to internet explorer as videos stopped working on firefox.
Internet explorer is bad news for this site or an unknown reason. Sometimes I can get on and post -sometimes it won't work.
Thank you for watching Misty's movie. Bless you Barbara