How beautiful Serena is. She has such an adorable face, and doesn't she just love that frisbee.
I am so sorry for your loss. I, like you, have had all those inane, senseless comments about the two babies I lost last year being 'just a cat,' or 'just a dog.' My Gonzo, and Solly were much more than a cat and dog. They were my babies, my friends, my companions, the apple of my eye and the light of my life. They mattered to me, were as important as life itself. I loved them, still love them, always will love them. I hunger for them as if I'm starved, thirst for them, ache for them. It will be six months on 17th January since I lost my beloved tabby, Gonzo, and four months on 22nd January since I said farewell to my gorgeous German Shepherd, Solly and though time has passed, there are days when I feel as bad as I did the day they left. In fact, there have been few days when I have actually felt like smiling, and any smiles have been small, or forced.
For those who do not understand the bond between human and four-legged friend, it is difficult for them to comprehend. For those who do understand, they are on your side. We are all individual and experience our loss in different ways, but the essence of grief is the same. I have lost a few pets, but losing Gonzo and Solly last year was beyond heartbreak. I felt the same when I lost my beautiful British Blue cat, Daisy, in October 2012. I still grieve for her, always will. I don't believe we ever stop grieving, merely learn to live with our loss. We have to accept what is, not what we want it to be. Unfortunately, life can be exceptionally tough. How we feel about our friends when they leave us is testament to the bond we shared with them. It is one of the most difficult decisions to say farewell.
Serena's energy will stay with you forever. She may not be here physically, but she will always be with you in spirit. That is one thing that can never be broken. I believe that when my time on this earth is up, I will see my beloved friends once more. Their energy surrounds me every day, the signs I have had tell me they are happy and waiting for me.
The unconditional love Serena had for you is still there and always will be. She will wait for you.
My thoughts are with you and Serena too.
Wendy, thank you. I agree that we may never stop grieving. It is difficult to say goodbye, let alone a goodbye that you had to schedule and plan for. You are so right, that Serena, Gonzo, and Solly are far more that just pets. They are our confidants, our shoulders to cry on, our walk buddies, our lapwarmers, and most importantly our friends and family.
She did love that frisbee! Her face would just light up when I picked it up to take it outside. We would have to hide it in order to get her to "do her business" because all she would want to do is play! I am hoping that there are lots of red frisbees just like hers at Rainbow Bridge (she had only one that she loved and would play with, out of the many we bought her).
Like you, my smiles are forced. I put on a facade when I am around others, even my own family. They ask how I am doing, I say that I am coping and that it is getting easier. But it is far from that. The only true smiles I have are through my tears as I remember silly things about my Reenie, which simply bring about more tears. I know that it will get better with time, but right now, I feel nothing but longing and grief.
I also know that we will be together again at Rainbow Bridge, and that there will be little signs of her all around me everyday... Today, it was the light, sparingly falling snowflakes as I took her brother Mickey outside this morning. They always looked so beautiful caught in her fur, like little specks of glitter - I took her picture every time, because she loved the snow and knew how beautiful she was when it was caught in her fur. I'd like to think that is her letting me know that she is okay...