We lost our 12 year old miniature doxie, Pumpkin, this past weekend. We had suspected that she had congestive heart failure for 2 months. The night before her passing, she was up all night coughing with a rapid heart beat. My dad took her in the car to the vet (40 mins away). He was petting her all the way. About 15 mins away from the vet, he looked down and she was gone. He drove her home and buried her in the back yard where she loved to play.
We are all so devastated. My step-mom and I haven't stopped crying for three days. When they told me what happened, I was in disbelief. I couldn't believe it. I wanted to go out and dig her up to make sure. She had been my best friend and only pet I have known for 12 years. I am shocked by how upset I am. Nothing has upset me this much - not even when my mom passed away. Sometimes I fear that Pumpkin's spirit is somewhere confused, and lost and missing us. All I want is to hold her and tell her I love her and that everything is OK.
It's so hard when you spend 12 years taking care of your pet, and when they pass, there is nothing you can do about it. I stumbled across this site and the idea of the Rainbow Bridge. I have found some comfort in it. I have never been a religious person to think if there is a heaven or not. This tragedy has devastated me and made me rethink my beliefs. I hope that Pumpkin in there in the meadow waiting for me so that we can be united again.