my beautiful black 4 year old cat chose me when i was looking through a shelter. he was about 8 months old. i had an illness and he was always beside me when i took naps or rested. when i recovered i have never had a pet who was so loving and affectionate he followed me from room to room during the day and was always by my side. i have never had a cat who licked me. i took him to the vet on friday to have a recurrent abscess debrided. two hours after i dropped him off, the vet called me to say that a routine pro-op feline aids test revealed that nemo was very ill with aids. i was stunned and devastated. he added that nemo would endure a rapid downhill course and probably not heal if he did the planned procedure. i chose to have him euthanized. i did not want to see him suffer (i had noticed weight loss and heard him groaning at times but had attributed this to the stubborn abscess). i cannot express my profound grief. i was not there when he was killed and now i think maybe i should have been there to comfort him. he really was my friend and constant companion when i was home. the house is empty and my husband tries to understand. i am so sad.