Bunnyguy, I lost my house bun Timothy 7 weeks ago and I know exactly what you have been through, and are still going through. I have to hide my feelings now because I know people do not understand how wonderful and special rabbits are as house pets, and how my heart is still breaking because I miss him like crazy. "It's just a rabbit...not such a big deal....get another". I know that's what some people think. So I don't mention Timothy anymore and when I cry, I cry alone. Even my husband thinks I have fully come to terms with it now, but I haven't and it is a very lonely place. That is why I came here.
One thing I have learnt is that grief is not just about bereavement, it is about loss. Timothy gave something to me that is inexplainable. You may understand that more than most. It's said that angels can take the form of rabbits on earth. No matter how rubbish things got, at work or family problems, it didn't matter. He was always there, and just looking at him made everything right in the world. So part of my grief is that loss. It has gone forever. It won't ever be the same again.
Binky free.....Timothy and EB
" The pain I feel now is the happiness I had before. That's the deal" C.S. Lewis