August 13, 2016 is the day my world stopped. My sweet Siberian Husky Bailee aka Possom passed away. Possom was my world. She had epilepsy and would have full grand mal seizures. They started in 2013 she was only 5 yrs old. She was on 3 different medications to help control them. Then in 2016 she was bitten by a copperhead snake multiple times in the face. I had her at the Vet within minutes. Where she received the anti venom not knowing that it would ultimately kill her. I asked her Dr whether she should get it due to her liver being already compromised. He said yes so I went ahead with it. She just kept getting sicker ended up in the hospital for almost a week. Then I was told there was nothing further they could do. So I made the decision to transfer her to a specialist. It seemed promising. I hoped anyway well, that same night the Dr called me around 2am to tell me she had passed away. I’ve felt so helpless in my life. Since then I wonder and blame myself. I should have transferred her way before. My life has never been the same. I go over that day of the snake bite all the time wondering what if we hadn’t gone outside. Then the day I transferred her then I realized, that her primary vet had not been giving her her seizure medications. The thought of her having withdrawals just breaks my heart. I really don’t know how to stop blaming myself.
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I am truly sorry for your loss.  Reading, your story, I believe that, you did everything under such painful circumstances.  Your intention was to save your beloved Possom.  
We do what we think is best for our fur babies, we take them to the vets, we administer meds, follow their instructions....but, we have no control of the outcome....and

If/when we lose our babies, we are blinded by pain and consumed by guilt.  I understand you because I still feel guilt. I re-live the last days, thinking What if? What if?

If we could heal our fur babies, we would - no hesitations.  You provided Possom the medical help she needed.  Be kind to yourself, do not blame yourself. 
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I’m so sorry for your loss, at such a young age and so tragically! Possom is a beautiful husky, beautiful eyes. You’ve been blaming yourself for a long time but I can’t find anything to logically regret. Not that that matters because we all seem to have it sneak in and take residence in our already painful heart. How could you have know that snake was out there that horrible day? You rushed her to the vet and she was started on anti-venom, that was your only hope. I know it took multiple vials for her size, I’m so happy they had it for her. Was their a possible interaction if her seizure meds would have been used at the same time? I know the neurotoxins of snake venom are attacking and can paralyze the bodys central nervous system and most anti seizure meds work by calming the CNS. But since they work in different ways and we know the anti-venom was a must at that point, maybe the seizure meds couldn't be used? Also the face is such a horrible place to have been bitten so many times, so close to the brain and the throat. It was a horrible accident and I wish for you and Possom it didn’t happen, I wish you had your beautiful girl with you to hold and love on right now. Be kind to you,,,,,
Lynn, Tankie’s mom, forever
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I put down my dog due to refractory epilepsy, he clustered, the medicine was not doing anything, so painful to watch him have the grand mals, same here I feel terrible but I believe with all my heart rainbow bridge exists, at least a place like it where my baby boy is waiting for me just like he waited for me everyday to come home from work.
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