I am so very sorry for the loss of both of your sweet precious baby girls.
Grief is awful and there is nothing else like this pain.
I am divorced - when I was married I buried my son- at that time I became a Certified Grief Counselor- I used the same graveside service for my Bear as I did for my son.
Please know that when we lose someone we love we don't stop loving them -
LOVE NEVER DIES.
The soul bound connection that is between our babies and ourselves is forever.
Nothing - not death- tears -grief - or sadness will ever break the ties between us for those ties are made of LOVE so strong that NOTHING will ever sever those connections.
LOVE NEVER DIES.
When we grieve for those we love it is because we do not quite know how to live without them. We breathe because we have no choice but the living part takes a huge amount of learning and time.
Grief is not something we get over but something that we learn -slowly- over time- to incorporate into our lives until it becomes a part of us like our bones and our breath.
Please know that we all understand here and we are all here for you.
We are all in this together and all walking the same roller coaster path of grief together -
some a bit ahead of you, some by your side, and some will come behind for you to help along.
Grief takes time. It usually takes the whole first year of “firsts” without them to take a true deep breath again. Be kind to yourself. None of this is easy.
Since you know that their brother also died of a kidney problem it sounds as if these babies came from a puppy mill breeder who did not know to go back 3 generations for health records before breeding dogs. There are some people who take any male and female dog and think it is fine to breed them even when they are closely related. They sell these puppies to stores from their puppy mills. It is very sad for the puppies and the people who love them so very much.
I am here for you.
We are all here for you and we care about you and we understand.
You Are In My Thoughts.