I was saddened to hear the loss of your Charlie. Losing an animal that is so precious is very very hard. It hurts so much at the beginning words really can't describe the feelings of pain, loss and hurt. I know how you feel, the bouts of crying and trying to hold it together just seem to go on and on. I find the hardest thing to accept is that I won't get to see my little girl again. But you know what we feel is normal. We love our little ones so much it is ok to be upset and distraught. Hang in there and remember your little Charlie for the special boy he was.