Ann, you've experienced so much loss in such a short amount of time. Even for someone who does not have to worry about managing depression, this experience could make them feel unbelievable sadness. Your feelings are valid and very raw right now and I want you to know that we are here for you and we will understand or try our very best.
I want you to remember what Marie would want for you. I want you to remember what a rock you were for Spooky and for Wilbur. You clearly are a person of unbelievable strength and resolve. Sometimes it is not fair to be so strong, but you have a purpose and you continue to have a purpose. You matter. Your loved ones are free of their pain, but it would hurt them to see you choose to leave your life here so soon. Ann, I know we cannot take this pain away from you, but you clearly are a person full of love, and there are many furbabies out in this world who would be so lucky to have you in their lives. Perhaps talk to your therapist, if you have one, and see if adopting a new furbaby will help ease your pain, or volunteering at an animal shelter. Furbabies and people alike need people like you, we want you to stay.