Your story resonates so much with many of us here. It is so hard to make that final decision for your beloved companion but you did do the right thing for him. They do hide the pain so well. We lost our sweet 12 year old pup last summer to urinal cancer. She only showed signs of illness 2 weeks before her diagnosis which was terminal. She must have been suffering so much, but was just happy and upbeat as always...ready for any adventure or just a snuggle. Our decision too, was heartbreaking as outwardly she was the picture of health. Yet she could no longer pass urine and the only surgical option was over $10,000 and would only have given her 2-3 months longer; just as long as it would have taken to recover from the surgery. I loved her too much to see her suffer and would rather bear the pain to spare her any more.
There are no "good" options in cases like yours and so many others, but we make a promise to protect and care for them. Unfortunately, letting them go is part of that care and compassion. The grieving process is different for everyone, but it is a struggle and sometimes your heart feels like it will never heal. I have learned to accept Daisy's death and be so grateful for her life. I was so lucky to have her in my life and with such great joy, comes such devastation when they depart from this world. I will tell you that there is still life, hope and love out there. I have since opened our home and more importantly my heart, to another dog. She has helped tremendously and is such a love. I hope you find peaceful moments as you work through your loss. We are all here to help and support you.
Lori, Daisy's Mom and now Luna's Mom