brent_rb
Yesterday I had to make the decision to put to sleep my sweet little pomeranian Maggie.  My wife and I have had her since the week we got home from our honeymoon, she was only a few weeks old.  She has been fighting cushing and leukaemia for the last few years.  Though you would never know it because she was so full of energy and life.  She blew away every Vet's expectation by years.  Just 24 hours after her 14th birthday she took a turn for the worse.  She was having trouble breathing and just wasn't herself.  She had swollen lymph-nodes everywhere including the throat.  I took her to the vet and she said that she now also had Lymphoma.  This time she was not going to bounce back.  They pumped her full of steroids to make her comfortable and sent her home with us to say out goodbyes.  The next day we took her in, yesterday, and the vet said there was nothing we could do but end her suffering.  I knew it was the right thing to do, but I have so much guilt over making it.  She was so happy all the way to the end.  She went so quick, they said her heart was really week so it didn't take much for it to stop.  I never in a million years though losing her would be so hard.  The house is so quiet and empty.  I just keep seeing her face and the life leaving her over and over in my head.  She got us through so many hard times, and was so attached to me.  She followed me everywhere.    I am not sure how you get through this.

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Maggie - October 14 2000 - October 16th 2014
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Dalidog
Maggie is beautiful.  Rainbows Bridge is a lifesaver.   So sorry for your loss.  Never easy

Dali, as much a daughter as any human...  pure love
Until we meet again

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animal_qwackers
Maggie was such a beautiful little girl and you did everything you could for her. She was a little stalwart, fighting like a trooper and living to a good age. You made the right decision to say your goodbyes to her and let her leave you with dignity and no horrible memories of her struggling against pain and suffering as many people who lose their beloved animals do. Losing a great friend is a nightmare and we fragile humans will always feel guilt thinking we could, and should have done something more. We take a big stick and beat ourselves up, take another and beat again, and we continually beat until we are bleeding and wracked with pain. That is the nature of the beast.

I have done it myself twice this year after losing my gorgeous cat, Gonzo, in July and my German shepherd soul mate and best friend, Solomon, less than four weeks ago. I am still aching for them both, still feeling guilt, still believing I failed them even though I did everything I could and did not want to see either one of them in misery. I did what I believed best. I have had to do it with my beloved pets before and it doesn't get any easier when the need arises but I know that in time I will accept what's happened and learn to adjust to a life without Gonzo and Solomon. At the present time, the grief is raw and it hurts so much.

Work through your grief but don't push it and expect too much. Grief affects us all in different ways and there is no time limit as to how long it goes on. We all cope in different ways.  One of the saddest things about owning pets is that invariably they will never outlive us and there will come a time when we have to cope with their loss. Think of how much joy and light Maggie brought into your life and how much you brought into hers. Those memories you have of her now will pass and be replaced with happier memories of her, and your time together. Losing a pet is a traumatic time, likened to losing a human, so don't be afraid to talk about Maggie and let everyone know how much she meant to you.

Light a candle for sweet Maggie and thank her for being in your life. She may not be here in physical presence but her memory will live on in your heart. The candle will extinguish but Maggie's memory and spirit is a light that will never fade.

I don't know you, but I know what you are going through and you are in my thoughts.

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” – Jack Lemmon

Solly, Gonzo, Daisy-Mae, Ebony, Jerry, Tigger, Bonnie, Suzy, Cleo, Spike, Sooty, and Tibby – dazzling lights that will never fade. Adored, cherished, I was privileged to know you all. Until we meet again, my beautiful babies. Bowls of love and cuddles, your ever-loving, devoted Mummy xxxxxxxxxx


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brent_rb
Thank you so much for your reply.  It is helpfully knowing I am not crazy and others are feeling the way I do.  Seems like not everyone understands a dog can be a member of your family and not just a pet.
Maggie - October 14 2000 - October 16th 2014
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MattiesMom10
Your Maggie is a beautiful girl. The rainbow bridge has been helping me cope with the loss of my Mattie. The people on here are wonderful and have so many kind words and stories. It has been 8 weeks for me and I am still trying to figure out what to do with myself. Know your not alone. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
God Bless
Susan Turner
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tcalger87
I'm so sorry about Maggie. My 14 yr old Border Collie/Ger Shep mix "G" is having problems with her rear legs. I am so worried and scared, sad, you name it. It is so horrible to say--but it's heartening to know that you are not alone in your time of sorrow. God Bless you & beautiful Maggie.
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animal_qwackers
Anybody who loves animals knows that they are part of the family so you are not crazy at all. Everyone on this forum knows how you feel. Dogs love us unconditionally only asking for love, a warm bed and shelter, tasty food, and some playtime. They are wonderful creatures, bringing joy and affection. Some of my friends think I am crazy. Do I care? No. I am a staunch animal lover and make no excuse for it. If that makes me crazy, so be it.

Bless you and your family, and bless Maggie.

“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” – Jack Lemmon

Solly, Gonzo, Daisy-Mae, Ebony, Jerry, Tigger, Bonnie, Suzy, Cleo, Spike, Sooty, and Tibby – dazzling lights that will never fade. Adored, cherished, I was privileged to know you all. Until we meet again, my beautiful babies. Bowls of love and cuddles, your ever-loving, devoted Mummy xxxxxxxxxx


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brent_rb
Thank you for all of your replies.  It really does help knowing you are not alone through this.  That many people understand your grief, and it is comforting to read others stories and see so many similarities to mine and my feelings.  This website really is a great place.  We had 14 wonderful years with out Maggie, she has changed mine and my Wife's life for the better.  She put a smile on everyone's face who met her.  She loved people so much...  not sure she even knew she was a dog.
Maggie - October 14 2000 - October 16th 2014
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spiritdog
I am so so sorry for your great loss. I lost Sidekick (13 yr) my Pom over a year ago (my avatar). Reading about your Maggie I see she had the same personality as my Side, he was my "happy". He too had Cushings, and 8 other diseases, like Maggie, no one ever knew how sick he was because of his happy spirit, he too shocked all the Specialists because he was like the energizer bunny, he just kept going and going. He even was at the vets for a skin condition, and the vet mentioned she heard something in his lungs, but didn't make a big deal out of it, but the rest of the day he couldn't lay down and panted nonstop, I finally took him to the ER. He did fine in the oxygen tank (his oxygen level was a shocking 56) and even started barking which to me was a good sign they took him out so I could take him home, I put him on the ground and he took off down the hallway, he had had it with doctors and wanted out, 30 seconds before he died he was running down the hallway of the ER....I picked him up, his head fell over and he died, I was in shock for a long time.

I know the deep grief and loss. I have tears in my eyes for you.........be gentle with yourself, spiritdog
"People disappoint, dogs never do" - spiritdog

"You MUST be your pets ADVOCATE, if it doesn't feel right walk away." - spiritdog
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