Cookie: Your post is so filled with the pain you now feel and the deep love you have for Rascal. My friend was a dog and 5 yrs, he died suddenly from renal failure on 7/26/10. We had no idea. He was at the vet's (again) when he died, I never got to say goodbye or say I love you. My last sight of him was the vet carrying him back to ICU. I wish I could help ease the pain we all suffer, because it is overwhelming. I do understand the loneliness and emptiness you and yours are feeling. Just know that I and sooooo many others are here for you. This forum has given me a place to go to express my loss to others who understand. Keep writing, keep sharing. Don't give up Cookie -- Rascal knew your deep love during life and now too.
Love and prayers, Tuffy's Mom
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal;
Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
Tuffy, My Puppy Love
June 20, 2005-July 26, 2010
Becky Leigh, Queen of my Heart
December 2010-November 10, 2015