I'm so devastated. I lost my Reilly yesterday. My precious British Shorthair, only 10 years old had a brain haemorrhage Sunday and I thought he had a cold but his breathing became more and more difficult and even Prednison didn't help anymore. Yesterday I brought him to the vet because his breathing became so difficult, they would put him in an oxygen cage and take photos later. And then I left so that I could pick him up later.
When they called the vet said she had bad news. I thought she was going to say that they saw something bad on the photos but she said that he had just passed away!
I went over and cuddled with him, he was still warm and I just couldn't believe it.
What they found on the x-rays was a sever pneumonia and his lungs had filled for 75% with fluids in a very short matter of time. There was just nothing they could do. Yet, the oxygen tank made him feel a bit better, so they made a plan to get him better. It was a slim chance but he had one.
But when she wanted to administer his medicine, his heart just stopped. He went on his own terms. I am heartbroken over the fact that I wasn't there. He was my everything for 10 years and I wanted to be there for him but it was so sudden that even the vets couldn't revive him. His heart just stopped instantly.
He was just recovering from major surgery in December, blather problems... he was doing well.
This is my letter to him.
I honestly don't know how to live without you. You are the only one I have ever loved with every fiber in my body, and I know that you loved me that much too. You knew the real me, all my secrets and you still loved me so much. Not having you around is an emptiness no one can ever fill. You were so unique. Not even a cat to me, but my child, my best friend, my buddy. You comforted me when I was sad, when I was sick and your undying love for me has made me a better person.
We went through so much when you became ill in November and I was so happy that you recovered from this. Your hairs started to grow back on your tummy and you were doing well. And then last Sunday night when you had the TIA, it was so sudden and horrible and when your breathing become so difficult I felt it was a bad sign but always had in my mind that we would have some more years together.
I miss you so much, it physically hurts. I heard about the Rainbow Bridge and it comforts me. Or maybe Henk is taking care of you now, and will you both wait for me when it's my time? I can't wait to see you again, until then I will suffer without you, living this emptiness that I can't even describe how devastating it is.
I love you so much, you are my everything. Luckily I have told you this many times and I hope you felt my undying love for you. At this point I really don't feel like going on without you. You were the reason I survived so many things. You made me strong and brave. I know I will have to go on, but I just want to assure you that I will do you right. I will make you proud and when we see each other again, will be pure joy and bliss.
My baby I will love you forever.
I'm sorry for any spelling mistakes, I'm Dutch so English is not my native language.
Reilly, I will love you forever. I will see you at the Rainbow Bridge.