Above all else, please remember the pain and grief you feel is real! You had a precious friend in Toby and what our hearts remember best is what we have loved best. I remember being a total wreck after my Carmen passed 9 years ago and I think I've just now progressed to being a semi-total wreck. We have so many questions - what if I had done this, what if I had recognized something sooner, what if I had given her a healthier diet - my list went on ad nauseum. But what I really wanted to know was why? How could this happen - how could this precious soul be taken away from this earth. And there is no answer to that question. So we go on, handling our grief in the best way we can. My salvation is knowing that she is waiting for me, playing, happy, healthy, dancing her happy dance with all the precious souls who have passed since - and that she is not alone o gone, she is waiting for me to find her on Rainbow Bridge. My sincerest sympathies for your loss.
My warmest regards, Carmen's and Gigi's mom - alicia