I lost my cat, Molly, in January but I’m still so consumed with guilt because I didn’t take her to the vet sooner. In December, she started not eating well but I just thought she was being finicky. I’ve seen her stop eating food before that she previously liked. But I should have known better since she was diabetic. But since she ate the treats I gave her when I gave her the shot, I wasn’t too concerned. In January, one day I noticed she seemed to be breathing hard although she wasn’t panting. I, also, noticed that she had barely eaten anything in the last 24 hours. So I took her to the vet that day. Well, they drained a large amount of fluid from her lungs. The vet looked at the fluid and said it looked like cancer but would send it to a pathologist to confirm. She said if it was cancer, there was nothing they could do and she would not get better and recommended euthanasia. The next day the vet called and said Molly had adenocarcinoma cancer of the lungs. I was devastated and hesitant about euthanasia fearing it was too soon. But she had barely eaten in three days, was hiding and so restless that I felt she was in pain so I said goodbye to my sweet girl the next day.
I feel so bad because I didn’t take her to the vet when she first started to cut back on the amount of food she was eating. I keep thinking maybe they could have caught it in time to save her. But then I’m aware that by the time she had curtailed her eating, she probably already had cancer and even if I took her to the vet then, there may have still been nothing they could do, since I’ve read this type of cancer spreads quickly. But the thing is I’ll never know. Do you think that I could have saved her if I took her to the vet earlier?
I’m usually pretty quick in taking my pets to the vet. Oh, why did I hesitate! It breaks my heart that she may have been hurting for a month while I did nothing.
As if this is not bad enough, when I took her for her yearly exam in June, the vet said she needed a routine blood test in 3 months. Since that vet is so far away and Molly gets so stressed out on the long trip, I thought I’ll just wait until next June so it can all be done on one vet visit. Now I’m wondering if that blood test could have revealed the cancer then which would have been 3 months prior to her first symptoms. Could that have saved her?
This is breaking my heart. She was the sweetest kitty I’ve ever known and my sole companion and I feel I failed her in so many ways.