RIPLexii
Just lost my dog lexii last night. I believe it was a reaction from the rabies vaccine. Before we gave her the shot she was fine. Her usual hyper crazy jumping eating dog. Right after the shot she changed. Didn't want to go walk, wouldn't. Eat wouldn't jump run or play. Then week after week she got worse. Took her to the vet twice and didn't. Get any answers. Vet gave us antibiotics and pain medication. She didn't get better but she started at least eating. But last night she just died suddenly. I won't know the cause of death since a autopsy costs too much. All I had enough money for was cremation. And of course I blame myself. I feel I should have taken her to another vet or should have paid and begged the vet to do all abd any tests. Now I live with that pain like this shouldn't have happened. I wish I could do something but I can't. This is the worst grief I've ever felt. More than my family relatives.
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RIPLexii
My beautiful best friend. God it hurts so bad. I miss you Lexii l love you!!!!
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spiritdog
I am so sorry for your sudden loss of Lexii.

Please know that an autopsy, actually called a necropsy may not have told you why. I know this because I had it done with my dog Hunter. I showed the results to 3 different vets (specialists as well) and all 3 gave me a different answer, so I learned very little. I did learn Hunter had a lot wrong with him though, it wasn't just one thing, it was a culmination of all of it that took him. I called it "the perfect storm".........there was nothing I could have done.

Sometimes there is nothing anyone can do and yes it hurts like hell.

"People disappoint, dogs never do" - spiritdog

"You MUST be your pets ADVOCATE, if it doesn't feel right walk away." - spiritdog
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Bellamum
I am so sorry that you are experiencing this heartache after losing your dear Lexii.  I know how deep the pain is.  It becomes overwhelming.  I also know the feeling of guilt and the constant questioning of all that you did for Lexii.  I did that also when I said goodbye to my sweet Bella, a little over 5 months ago.  We torture ourselves with these guilty thoughts.  Try to let go of the guilt.  It only adds another terrible element to your grief.  You are suffering enough without that.

Your Lexii knows that you loved her with all of your heart and that you would have done anything to keep her here with you.  She doesn't blame you, so you shouldn't either.  Just like with my Bella....If love could have saved her, she would have lived forever.

We grieve so badly because we love them so deeply.  They are not just like our family, they ARE our family.  We will love and miss Lexii and Bella for the rest of our lives, but hopefully this pain will change and it will become easier to cope with.  I don't know when that will happen, but many people assure me that it will.  At the moment I feel that if I stop having this dreadful pain that it will be disloyal to Bella.  I know that is silly....she knows that I adore her and always will, but rational thoughts are not really happening at the moment.

I wish you peace and healing.  I hope that soon you can remember your beautiful Lexii with more smiles than tears.
Karen
(Bella, Charli and Buddy's very lucky mum)

My gorgeous girl, Bella  26/07/2004 - 03/04/2014
"You were once by our side, but you will be forever in our hearts. Until we meet again baby girl."
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Maxs_Daddy1
My heart breaks to read of your tragic loss. There are no words i can offer that will help. Please resolve to keep coming back to this forum. It has helped me in my days without my boy. Take time to grieve. You have lost a member of your family. 

I don't know if this will help, but you could try writing a letter to your sweet girl. I never thought something like that would help, but it helped me. 

I pray you will find peace during these difficult days. I am sending good thoughts your way and I know your girl is being welcomed by all our babies on the Rainbow Bridge.

I will be thinking about you today, hoping a peace will soon wrap around you.
I am the very proud father of Maximus, a black and white rat terrier. My beautiful boy left this world September 5, 2014.
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Samiam
Lots of love and peace to you. I keep thinking as I read everyone's post how our pets knew when we were sad, and they just didn't like it. Hugging them, spending time with them, and loving them helped all of us with sad times in life. If they were here now, they would be trying to comfort us. How ironic?? This is helping me get through these first few days, I am trying so hard Buddy not to be sad, because you always hated when I was sad and worked hard to get me out of that state.
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RIPLexii
Samiam wrote:
Lots of love and peace to you. I keep thinking as I read everyone's post how our pets knew when we were sad, and they just didn't like it. Hugging them, spending time with them, and loving them helped all of us with sad times in life. If they were here now, they would be trying to comfort us. How ironic?? This is helping me get through these first few days, I am trying so hard Buddy not to be sad, because you always hated when I was sad and worked hard to get me out of that state.
Thank you all for your words of encouragement. Time is defiantly helping. I still miss my best friend but I'm not crying. When u think of Lexii I think of the good times. All the beach trips, the walks, the time we took her to the pet fair, how we used to play fight and the way she would go crazy when I came home from work. I miss my Lexii so much but I know she's not in the pain that she was in the last few weeks of her life. I wish I could go back in time and do things differently but I can't. I just have to keep living. I really miss my doggy. Sigh. Must good to know I have support during this tough time. Thank you all once again for your words. They bring some comfort
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