A_Hole_in_my_Heart
Her name was Myrtle. She was 13-14 years old and a major part of our lives. 3 weeks ago she was healthy and running around and then she suddenly started losing weight and became weaker. She was diagnosed with renal failure, a 3 cm mass in her abdomen, and on the day she died anemia. My family and I were fighting for her with all our might. We had gotten her kidney values down after 3 days of fluid treatments and antibiotics and appetite stimulants in a hospital. We were given sub Q fluids to give to her at home. She seemed to be feeling better, but then on the day she died she started walking even worse then before going sideways and bumping into the walls and bed. So we took her to see another vet who told us that we should take her in for another 24 hours of fluid treatment and antibiotics to bring her values down more and set up for a ultrasound for the next day, but that wasn't meant to be. Her becoming anemic is what killed her. We had taken her into the vet the day she passed away for the other 24 hours of fluid and antibiotics. We had so much hope for her making it through this. We gave her loves and kisses and told her we would be back for her. We were on our way home when we got the call. They had been getting her ready for the I.V fluids when all of a sudden she started gasping and then went into cardiac arrest. They rushed her back to the operation room and put an oxygen mask on her and tried to resuscitate her, but they couldn't and she left this world with a bunch of technicians and vets petting her and loving on her. My family and I did not get to say good bye. It hurts so much. I miss her so much. I feel so guilty for not being there and for not being able to save her, for not noticing her pain sooner.
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MyBella
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Myrtle, she fought such a battle, what a strong girl.
In time, I hope you are able to use the many cherished moments that you shared with your Myrtle to help mend your shattered heart, but it takes time, so no need to rush or push yourself.
If and when you feel up to it, I would love to hear more about your girl, maybe a photo of her, of course I completely understand if you aren't ready just yet.

May the love that your Myrtle still surrounds you with be felt so deeply in your heart, bringing with her love, the peace and healing you so deserve.
Please try your best to not feel guilt, (easier said than done, I understand), they are so good at hiding their pain from us, your Myrtle wouldn't want you to feel any guilt, you provided her a loving home and she will never forget that you did.

I am so, so sorry for your loss.

Sincerely Don & Vera

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FuzzyLogic
Don't be hard on yourself.  You did everything you could and gave her a fighting chance. Everything you did was done from love.
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A_Hole_in_my_Heart
It's still hard to talk about her without crying, but my heart tells me it is okay to share a few things. She was our black and white furry baby with gorgeous green eyes. She had a beautiful meow and an extremely loud purr as well as pretty little pink paws and a pink nose. We have had her since she was a kitten. Everyday with her was amazing. Even though it still hurts to think about all the good times there are these moments when some strong memories pop up and I can actually smile through all the pain and tears. One of them is when she was younger. She would get into all kinds of trouble and we would have to spray her with a spray bottle. She would bunny hop down the hall trying to dodge the water and we would laugh so hard that we could never stay mad at her for too long. There are a lot more stories, but I have reached my limit for now. Your posts have helped me and my family out tremendously. I am happy that I joined this support group. Thank you guys so much for being with us through all of this and being able to understand how precious and strong Myrtle was. 
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A_Hole_in_my_Heart
The other furry babies are still looking for Myrtle, it breaks my heart to see them waiting and expecting to see her. We have a big black puppy named Chewy. Whenever we would play with him Myrtle would always come into the living room and lay by on the floor by us and he would go over and poke her with his nose. Now whenever we play with him he at times stops playing and looks around expecting Myrtle to be there. Her daughter Lupe is hiding all the time because her mama is no longer there to cuddle with. Whenever they cuddled they would have their legs overlapping each other and made a beautiful heart shape, a big black and white furry heart. Now that heart is no longer whole. It has been broken, it makes me so mad. I so badly want to know why we were meant to  lose her like this, but I know I won't ever get an answer. 
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Eileennellie
My 15 year old cat, Puffy, died suddenly of what we believe was a stroke last September 13 th. Our other cat, Allison (now over 16) seemed to be aware that he was gone physically, but I believe he is still with her, beyond what I can see. Myrtle is still there, but in a way that we can't physically see. We will not get answers, but I believe that one day we will no longer need them, because we will be together again. The physical world we knew each other in will be gone, and we will be at peace together forever.
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A_Hole_in_my_Heart
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Myrtle is the kitty on the bottom left. She doesn't look very happy about having to share the bottom tier of the tree with her little brother Charlie. I miss her so much. It has been 32 days since she passed away. I know the pain will subside to a point where I will be able to endure it at one point, but right now it is overwhelming and what's even worse is that my 21st birthday is in three days I did not want to spend it without her, but now I have no choice. It hurts so much. We still have not gotten her ashes and paw print back. I want her home.
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