I'm so sorry for the loss of your cat. It is hard with euthanasia because even though we know we are making a kind, loving choice for our pets, it's still difficult to know we had to help them over the bridge. It's really difficult the first few days and even weeks of mourning. The guilt is part of the process most people go through, I know I certainly have. The pain and the sadness is normal and difficult. I had the same thoughts as you looking at my others dogs thinking "Good Lord in ten years (less with Abby probably two years) am I going to be going through this agony again?" When I think this way, I have to take a breath and remind myself that the love, laughter, and happiness far outweighs the sadness of death and that I'll always have them in my memories and my heart. It's normal to be scared when we love our furbabies so deeply. Your baby is free of pain and is still around, just in spirit form. I believe animals have souls and that their souls are now whole and healthy and that they still are around us and watch over us with love.
Mija, Chihuahua: 2004-2019
16 years London, Golden Retriever: 2005-2020 15 years Mom to Misty, Sango, Tami, Abby, Kawaii and Pepita the Chihuahua