I send you my very deepest condolences at this sad time for you, on your loss of Shelby.
I do understand your extremely close relationship with her. And I also do understand what you went through in deciding to help end her pain, by euthanizing her.
I do have recent experience with both of these realities, and the emotions, sadness, and pain that come with the combination of them.
Since April I lost 2 extremely beloved dogs since April 2017, and compassionate euthanasia was necessary. I also lost a very beloved cat shortly before them. All of them were very close to me and very, very loved by me. I am retired, with lots of time on my hands, to spend it with my pets, to spoil them, make their lives happy and content.
But I also understood, when their health was declining, just failing really, that I needed to help them suffer much less. And compassionate euthanasia was my only real choice to help all of them any further. Medical care would have made sense, if they had a temporary condition, that medical care could cure and then they could then move on to many more years of a wonderful life. But this was not the reality. Extreme medical care would only put off, temporarily, what I feared the most.
My 3 beloved pet "children" I describe above, lived to be 16 years old, 11 years old, and 10 years old. They ALL had very wonderful and LOVING lives with me and my wife. They were all LOVED deeply and fussed over. They were all SPECIAL and these 3 pet "childen" always knew this ... they knew they were VERY LOVED and had a wonderful home/family.
Your loss is so recent. I understand much or most of what you are feeling right now, but I don't pretend to understand all that you must feel, as some of course is unique to you and to your special pet.
But more than anything, I would urge you to concentrate now on the wonderful love you gave and shared with your pet. I am sure it was extraordinary for you both! And fully realize you set Shelby free, by ending her pain, and this was most loving thing you could possibly do for her when you did.
Tasha's Dad and Jessie's Dad and (I should add) Mindy's Dad
p.s. post script:
- Tasha I have shared so very much about here on this forum and my grieving since April, as Tasha was my extremely special "child" for 10 plus years. She changed my life in so many indescribable ways.
- I also shared some about my more recent loss of Jessie too. It was on December 15 when I lost her too.
- But I did not share about Mindy here at the RB forum until today, I have been so busy with Tasha mainly.
Mindy, I will also love you to the end of time ... the same as Tasha and Jessie. We were all so very close, and we all lived together for many years, as a very very special loving family. The times were magical for me, Mindy, Tasha, and Jessie!
The 3 of you, and also Pumpkin the world's most affectionate cat who is still very much alive and still thriving at age 17 or 18, absolutely just completed me as a soul, or a spirit, or a human, for the 1st and only time in my life as a "father".
God Bless all of you!!! Thank you for making my life extremely special and meaningful. Because all of you were extremely special and meaningful.