Hi, I am so sorry to hear about Kipper's passing. I too just had to say goodbye to my sweet cat Toby, who I'd had since I was 20. We spent 15 years together and both grew so much in that time. It seems particularly hard to lose pets that are with us through those huge transitional periods, from childhood to teenage years to early adulthood and beyond. Such tumultuous times, and sometimes our furry friends are the only ones who can provide us unconditional love in a harsh world.
Please try not to feel guilty about your decision or about having another cat. It sounds like Kipper knew he was so loved, and making this decision, though unbearable for us humans, is truly humane for our friends. Yes, it is normal to be this devastated. Pets are our companions, our charges, our friends and part of our families. Losing them leaves a huge void in our lives. All we can do is share our grief, take life as slowly as possible in these early days after saying goodbye, and be kind to ourselves. You are entitled to feel this way. It's just a reflection of how deeply you loved Kipper. Wishing you peace in the coming days. We're here for you. Katie
"How it is that animals understand things I do not know, but it is certain that they do understand. Perhaps there is a language which is not made of words and everything in the world understands it. Perhaps there is a soul hidden in everything and it can always speak, without even making a sound, to another soul." ― Frances Hodgson Burnett