Have you ever spent time looking up at the sky wondering if your beloved pet is up there somewhere? Call me crazy, but I do it often and many times I have seen Ted in the clouds. When I am at my most sad, I often go outside and look around the sky and low and behold, I see him. It is amazing to me and I may be nuts but I think he is there, watching down. The other day, at Ted's 4 month mark, I was on a bus going to the rental car drop off in Houston. I was so upset that I could barely hold back the tears. It was a little embarrassing but I couldn't help it. So, I decided to look for Ted in the clouds. It took a while, and I thought I would not see him, but after a few minutes, he was there, on his back, playing with what looked like an opposum. (Cheeto perhaps?) I have a vivid picture of him on his back playing because my son took in a puppy shortly before we lost Ted and he used to lay down on his back and let her jump all over him, pushing her away with his paws to be playful. Sometimes I amaze myself at the ways in which I can make myself feel better. It just takes some patience and imagination. This may be completely rediculous but it works for me and I am happy with that. Today, I am sitting at my computer with baby Pippin behind me like Ted used to do. It is comforting to have that warm body touching mine. Of course, Pip isn't laying down, he is bending around my arm as I type trying to see what is going on. He is a God send (or maybe a Ted send), I am not sure. But I am amaxed that he does not try to jump off the chair. May be because he is quite small at 7 lb. I choose to believe that Ted has told him to stay.
My Beloved Ted 8/7/2005 - 7/7/10