Dear Maggie's Mom, I am so very sorry to hear about your loss, and I can identify with what you went through with Maggie. We lost our Bengal Cat, T.J., to a brain tumor and his symptoms were very similar to Maggie's. It's so heartbreaking to see them go from being such healthy, active friends to being so sick and losing control of their mobility. The fact that Maggie was only four years old must make it extra difficult for you. My heart goes out to you now. Maggie was so fortunate to have found her way to your home where she knew a lifetime of love in those four fleeting years. Although to you Maggie was only 4 years old, a four year-old Boxer is the equivalent of a human who is about 33 years old. Still far too young to leave you, but I hope that knowing she was an adult helps you to understand that she had more time with you, from her perspective, than it seems like she did. Everything you are feeling now is normal. It takes time to recover from such a devastating loss, and it helps so much to have a community of people who understand the depth of your sorrow the way everyone here does. For me, the two week mark has always been just about the most difficult time. At that point, it seems like the people in my every day life are ready for me to move on, but I am not there yet. The comforting dullness of grief is beginning to wear off, and the stark reality of what's happened is just starting to sink in. The pain of loss is still as great as ever, but all the safety nets seem to be drifting away. The two week mark can be a really hard hill to climb, I know. But still, it's only two weeks! What a very short time in the grand scheme of things. Just the blink of an eye. Try to live your life now the way Maggie would if you had been the one to go first. Our animals live in the moment, accepting things as they are and not looking too far behind or ahead of them. They are all about what is. It takes time for us to get to that point, and to find the gratitude for what we had, rather than the anguish over what we have lost, but eventually we make it to that point. Everyone here will walk that journey with you. It just takes time and a lot of understanding. Please come back and tell us more about Maggie May and all the things that made her such a special part of your lives. It helps so much to tell their stories and share them with others who really do get it. Go ahead and talk to her as if she were right there by your side. She always will be, but in a different from now. She will never be more than a whisper away from you. You, your husband, and your Angel Maggie May are in my thoughts and prayers.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery