Caseys_Mom
I let my sweetie Casey go yesterday.  This was indeed the hardest decision of my life.  My first pet I've had to euthanize.  He was 15 years old on 7/11.  We received him 6 years ago when my husband's dad passed away suddenly so we decided to take him in our home.  Best decision of my life. My tough guy went through serious back surgery 4 years ago...he jumped off my bed and I was in my office then tried to take him out for a walk and his back legs wouldn't move.  Horrified we went to the vet, did MRI found out it was two ruptured discs and decided that he had too much life left to let him go then.  We decided to have back surgery done, nursed him back to health and he was just great the past 4 years.  The only thing we had to do for him was to pick him up to go up and down the stairs as not to damage his back anymore.  Well a few months ago I took him to the vet to look at his teeth and because of a growth inside the side of his neck, we did some initial tests and couldn't conclude anything, at the same time, he got something in his eye that totally irritated that...we took care of the eye first and then were going to take care of the teeth and growth.

Well after a month and a half of drops the eye cleared up then decided we were not going to put him out for a teeth cleaning and did not want to get aggressive on the growth, so we left well enough alone.  He was progressively getting more and more lethargic which I chalked up to old age, his arthritis w/the old back surgery and so forth.  A couple of weeks ago he was so bad turning his nose at food and I freaked out, started giving him cooked rice w/his food, which he ate most of, but his appetite wasn't the same. Went back to the vet last week, Monday  7/7 and found out he lost 2.1 lbs in less than three months...now he was only 15 lbs down to 13 lbs but that is a lot for a little dog.  We then measured the growth which originally was 2x3 three months ago, grew to 4x4 and was starting to protrude near his esophagus.

Again we decided, no blood work or treatment...not at his age.  So we made the very hard decision that we would let him fall asleep forever from earth.  This happened last night.  I held him so tight in my arms...and so sad to let him go.   I love him so much and miss him terribly.  I'm a wicked hot mess.

We didn't want to see him get any worse...he was already looking so skinny and not really wanting to eat or do much but he still, like all Bichons looked like a sweet little puppy.  I am now dealing with the guilt of losing him...and I hope that goes away soon.  It hurts so bad, I just don't know what to do.

He was the "best doggie ever"...I miss my Casey Bear :-( IMG_0682 - Copy - Copy.JPG  Casey.jpg 


My little luv bug Casey...how I miss petting and cuddling you....you will live in my heart forever. 
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MawMaw1
So sorry for your loss.  What a beautiful boy.  I put my furbaby to sleep Sunday and I am a basket case,too.  But you know we wouldn't be feeling so deeply and bad, if we hadn't had so many GOOD and  PRECIOUS years with our animals.  I guess it is a tradeoff ... if you are really deeply happy and committed to your companion, when they go you are going to have to pay with overwhelming pain in your loss.  But I will accept my pain for the 14.6 years of love I got from my Toby.  Don't know if that helps any, just throwing it out there. 
I had to euthanize my beautiful 14.6 year old Lhasa Apso, Toby, Sunday and I am so torn up and full of emotions that surprise and overwhelm me.  I had found out Friday from a vet specialist hospital that he had inoperable brain tumors, cancer, that were causing his crazy symptoms.  I had been nursing him since February for various problems, one after the other ... only to find out these tumors were causing all these problems.  I am so ANGRY at my local vet for not referring me earlier.  Anyway, Toby wasn't responding well to the anesthesia for the MRI ... and then he started having seizures again.  I took him to the local vet hospital but had to put him down ... he looked so bad ... my beautiful boy.  I wonder if I should have waited and tried the chemo and radiation the speciality hospital suggested;  did I do this too soon?  I am a mess emotionally.
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MurphysMom_0831
I'm so sorry about your Casey. What a darling little boy. Making this decision is the hardest one we have to do. I had to make it for my beloved Golden Retriever, Murphy. Tomorrow will be 4 weeks and the pain is every bit as bad today as it was June 18. It's like tidal waves of grief that just keep coming. Murphy stopped eating, too, and went from 84.5 pounds near the end of May to 67 when he passed after 13 days in a specialty hospital with surgery and feeding tubes. Surgery found a massive case of pancreatitis of unknown cause. It has been a horrible experience, and many people here are going through the same emotions. I had Murphy for 9-1/2 years, but no matter how old they are, it's never, ever enough time. I don't understand why these things have to happen, but I do believe they are all together, happy and healthy again at the Rainbow Bridge just waiting for us while they play.

Blessings to you,

Murphy's Mom (Kathryn)
"Sometimes there is a dog who is so special, he is able to wrap himself so completely around your heart it is impossible to tell where you begin and he ends."  For My Beloved Murphy, 08/31/2004 - 06/18/2014


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Caseys_Mom
MawMaw1 and Murphy's Mom....thanks for the kind words....so sorry for your losses too.  It is really great to know that we are not alone in our feelings.   Each situation is unique for us but we still come together for the love of our fur babies.  I have been reading that people get signs from their pets and I do hope that will happen for me, I'll feel so much better.  I just need to be patient.  Casey came into my life to teach me lots of things, especially patience. I do believe our fur angels are all together too...playing and frolicking just waiting to see us again.

Blessings to you all.

Patty
My little luv bug Casey...how I miss petting and cuddling you....you will live in my heart forever. 
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traut21
Such a beautiful pup. I too lost my best friend and constant companion Midgee the Chihuahua 2.5 weeks ago as her trachea and bronchi were collapsing due to her enlarging heart. The decision to euthanize was tough and second guessed but necessary. The time I had with her was a short 3.5 years (adopted when she was likely 8). I completely relate to the pain and feelings of not knowing what to do with myself. They look so real and alive in their pictures and videos that it hurts. I've wanted to get into a pet loss support group but the July 4th holiday had one cancelled and then I had to travel missing the second chance. I hear those can help out a lot. I also read the book Bill at Rainbow Bridge which was amazing and helpful to me. I write letters to her daily to get my feelings out. Hang in there and know there are others out there that understand what you are going through and how much it hurts. Especially for those of us who have had to nurse our friends through medical issues that ultimately take them away from us too soon. The grief comes in waves but I seem to be a terrible surfer. Please take care!
For my wonderful Midgee, the best friend I've ever had. You will live in my heart until we meet again!
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susiebeagle
So sorry for your loss.

Euthanizing Susie was the hardest thing I ever did. Two months later, I think I made the wrong decision. She was comatose for two days after several seizures on May 12 and was thrown out of the hospital like a piece of trash because I didn't have thousands of dollars in my pocket. I raised the money via pledges a couple of hours later, but several people urged me to put her to sleep. I just couldn't, particularly after she began drinking water. I was paralyzed. In retrospect, I should have tried friendlier hospitals and tried to collect the pledges. I just didn't want at that point to justify collecting money from people when she was most likely brain-dead. In retrospect, I owed it to Susie to try to save her again, even if it would cause problems from my benefactors.
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