So sorry for your loss. What a beautiful boy. I put my furbaby to sleep Sunday and I am a basket case,too. But you know we wouldn't be feeling so deeply and bad, if we hadn't had so many GOOD and PRECIOUS years with our animals. I guess it is a tradeoff ... if you are really deeply happy and committed to your companion, when they go you are going to have to pay with overwhelming pain in your loss. But I will accept my pain for the 14.6 years of love I got from my Toby. Don't know if that helps any, just throwing it out there.
I had to euthanize my beautiful 14.6 year old Lhasa Apso, Toby, Sunday and I am so torn up and full of emotions that surprise and overwhelm me. I had found out Friday from a vet specialist hospital that he had inoperable brain tumors, cancer, that were causing his crazy symptoms. I had been nursing him since February for various problems, one after the other ... only to find out these tumors were causing all these problems. I am so ANGRY at my local vet for not referring me earlier. Anyway, Toby wasn't responding well to the anesthesia for the MRI ... and then he started having seizures again. I took him to the local vet hospital but had to put him down ... he looked so bad ... my beautiful boy. I wonder if I should have waited and tried the chemo and radiation the speciality hospital suggested; did I do this too soon? I am a mess emotionally.