I have been doing a little better , day by day , week by week.... trying my best to process and work through my grief. I lost my little boy Zeus on July 16th and my heart broke and my world shattered. I miss him so desperately and wish daily that he was still here with me.
I have been trying to keep myself very busy, and out of the house as much as possible. I dog sat for a week hoping it would give me comfort to have a dog to snuggle with and take care of, and it was. I then left town for 4 days to help someone dear move in and get settled. And during all that time, which was back to back I was so busy and occupied , I wasn’t dealing with my own feelings which I only realized on the long drive back home. The closer I got to home, the more it became clear I was going home to Zeus not being there.
I feel like if I try to keep busy, it’s like I’m trying to forget him and then it hits me even harder. Is this a normal part of grieving, or should I ‘be over it’ as it’s been insinuated to me recently?
I think maybe I was suppressing my feelings and that is why I feel overwhelmed at this moment... trying to keep busy is one thing, but hiding from my feelings is another.
Or maybe it’s just a bad day. Thanks for listening 💕