LR_EJ
We just lost our baby, an 8-year-old Pomeranian, the sweetest dog on earth, I know, we all consider our pets the very best in the world. He was, for sure.

I'm having trouble coping with all kind of emotions, mostly low's, all happening very fast. I just can't believe it, just a couple of days back, my Choco was playing like he always did.

And now, everything went down, from sadness to guilt... I'm struggling, all the horrible images from our visits to the Hospital are coming at the same time. I remember his eyes like saying "get me out of here daddy, mommy"... I'm so confused, I didn't felt like this even when my grandparents passed away, it was easier for me to tell a story of "how they are better now". With my precious dog, I only feel sadness... can't find that good scenario about this...

He was not supposed to go right now, he had 5 more years easy, but he ate something he shouldn't have (a bone) and got obstructed, then inflammation, vomit, and everything escalated. We got the best attention possible, a state of the art Pet Hospital full of doctors and specialists, but he just went down so fast... his stomach, rectum, pancreas, kidneys and finally the lungs, he died of respiratory failure after 50-60 hours.

I just keep reviewing on my mind the succession of events, finding several ways this could be avoided and I keep shouting to myself, it doesn't matter, he is gone and nothing will change that... we are devastated.

We drove to my mothers' house and we buried him there in the yard and planted a tree on top. We said our words, we kissed him and hugged his fury and still soft body... but still, I feel like I'm living in hell...

Thanks, to anyone reading.. just wanted to write something down...

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Bronsonsmommy
I am so sorry for your loss. I am going through the same thing right now and it is the most unbearable pain imaginable.
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TaazyBoy
I am so sorry you lost your sweet Choco. We lost our boy a few days ago under similar circumstances and it has been devastating. I have gone over in my head a thousand times what we may have done different, getting a fourth opinion, asking for tests sooner, sadly I guess it really doesn't change anything and perhaps nothing else could have been done anyhow. Like you we thought for sure we had a few years left. What I do know for sure is our boy knew we loved him to the moon and back every single day of his life right to the moment he crossed the bridge. I take some solace in that and hope you too will reach that place eventually. Big hugs

Lisa
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LR_EJ
TazzyBoy, thanks for reading and taking the time to share, I went through and read Tazzy's story, I'm truly sorry :(. You adopted Tazzy in an act of love and you gave him a vastly better life, that's the thing that matters the most. We are also torturing ourselves with the medical diagnosis and treatment, analyzing every information we received by the doctors, but as you know, nothing changes the outcome. 

Choco was there when our two sons where born, he loved them so much and we liked to think he took care of them both. He just had this great personality and he felt like a key member of the family. 

Big hugs your way,
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LR_EJ
Bransonsmommy, thanks for your kind words. I read Bransons story and I feel for you. Nothing prepares you for an outcome like this and all the love, all the good things, they just turn into the opposite. You loved your boy so much and gave him everything, just as we did with Choco. That's the price we pay for loving so much? 

While I was explaining to my kids what happened with Choco, my 6-year-old got it and cried instantly but then he started with the questions; "where is he now?", "Can I see him?", "Is he happy or sad?". Somehow, answering to all these questions gave me minutes of calm, but then again, the memories, they just break me again. 

I try to convince my self, that these things happen all the time and it's just part of life, and everything that happens was meant to happen, we just focus on the one big bad thing. I bet Branson gave you so much and I hope, eventually, all those nice things will surface on top. Hugs and thank you.
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Bronsonsmommy
Thank you so much for your kind words. It has been two days and I am completely at a lost. I try so hard to remember all the good times and hopefully, I can forget about his last moment on earth. Your words have meant a lot for what I am going through. I hope you are able to get through your days and remember all of the wonderful memories of Sweet Choco. Xoxo
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