Since Millie has been gone I don't take joy in anything which before her passing made me feel happy or at least excited. All of those joys have left me because I have changed. I will need to find new joys. Not sure what they will be or when I will find them. I just know that I have been forever changed by this experience. I was changed after losing my last female pup.
I completely understand. The minutest of actions that can just trigger those tears out of nowhere. Like Marlen & Lynn mentioned with the veggies. No puppy waiting for me to throw carrots to them. Like Rookiesmama mentioned regarding our overcast weather, it's the best dog walking weather. Millie would have loved it. Roman was black like Rookie and Dickens, she would have loved it. I try to push myself to go out and walk by myself. I manage it 50% of the time, but the joy is no longer there because my pups aren't there to go exploring. I'm not married either, so I can cry or scream whenever I want to, but then I also come home to a completely empty house, so it has its pros and its cons. Skmk, using your baby's harness for another dog would be upsetting to me too. Some of the leashes I have shared between the dogs. Some of the car harnesses I would share, but not their personal collars or harnesses. Those belonged to each one of them individually. Whenever I bring in a new dog, even if it's a foster, they receive their own brand new collar. It's personal to me. I love that Dickens sat at the back of your chair. I can just imagine that cute doxie butt almost hanging off the chair. Too adorable. And Bailey and Max on their own chairs next to Marlen, because they needed to be right with their mommy. Marlen, I don't see why you can't have 2 heart dogs. My 2 female dogs changed me. They are my heart dogs in different ways. They were both the very challenging ones and they affected me much more deeply than my boys did. The boys were so easy and sweet. Never any issues. The girls were pushy and wanted their own way all of the time. They always demanded my attention. Those experiences I will always remember
Mom to Millie, Roman, Snoopy & step sister to O'Boy