Oh Kim, accidents happen and it's so unfair. I can only imagine your grief but please dont blame yourself, Rae would hate to think you are blaming yourself. I heard this past summer so many children drown in pools. It's terrible but things happen in a blink of an eye and you can't change it no matter how much we wish it could be. Unless you are with them 24 hours a day, there's always a chance something tragic can happen. I'm so sorry to hear of your pain...it is sad to lose a pet anytime. Is there a pet loss group you can go to that might give you immediate assistance. There are some in most cities. Maybe it might help? Guilt is a terrible thing, I think we all go thru things like that with our pets no matter what the reason. I wish you peace thru this trying time.