Dear Laura, I'm so sorry that your pain and doubt are still so great, but I can tell you that we miss them forever once they've made their spaces in our hearts. You can rest assured that no one here will think you're crazy. We all know you're absolutely normal. There is no such thing as "Just a dog." Bless you for loving Tallulah so well, and for knowing what was in her heart and what made her the happiest when she was with you. I hope you will see that she had a better chance with you than she would have had with most people, and that even though she was only with you for a short time, she knew a lifetime of love. She still resides in that spot within your heart, and she always will. She knows what's in your heart, and she understands that your pain at that moment was overwhelming. As she sees it, there is nothing to forgive. You did the best you could with the resources and information you had at the time. I believe you are right. Tallulah would have spent the rest of her life dreaming of the old days, when she could run with wild abandon to her heart's content. She can do that now at the Rainbow Bridge while she awaits your arrival. Even if that day comes 100 years from now, to her it will seem like it's only been a moment since she was by your side physically. There is no time and no longing there, only happiness and eternal health. She is pure love energy, with no aging physical body to hold her back. I can even hear my Bridge Kitties shouting, "Wheeee!" sometimes, and I'm absolutely sure it's because they're on wild doggy-back rides. Considering what a good runner Tallulah was while she was here, I can't help but picture zooming past with two handsome kitties on her strong shoulders. You, your new brood, and your Angel Tallulah are all in my thoughts and prayers.
My heart is battered and bruised, but I will not let it break. It holds such precious cargo, I must protect it now. (Susie Squillions)
"Memories of loved ones are like songs in our soul." Margaret Wakeley
BUDDY GUY AYRES~LYNCH'S RESIDENCY:
KING BING THE GOD CAT'S RESIDENCY:
In one of the stars, I shall be living.
In one of them, I shall be laughing.
And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the sky at night.
~ The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery