Last night, we rushed my 19 year old cat to the vet. She had been declining all day and we were worried when she was cuddled up to me on the couch and started peeing in her sleep. I spent an hour trying to find a vet open and finally got her in.
the vet said she was in chronic kidney failure; was dehydrated, her temperature was so low because she couldn’t regulate it and she likely had a respiratory infection based on her breathing.
less than an hour after we arrived she was put to sleep. I literally can’t stop thinking about feeling her body go limp. My heart is absolutely breaking. I’ve had her since she was 6 weeks old and she’s been with me half my life.
im having trouble seeing life without her, she was the most amazing cat I could have ever asked for. I’ve spent the last 24 hours crying my face off, I miss her so much.
I know we made the best choice. I asked if there was anything we could do and there wasn’t anything that would take away her pain and discomfort but I can’t help but feel like maybe there was something, anything. My guilt is so strong right now.