I'm sorry if this isn't the place for talking about such things, but, it's the only place that brings me comfort and makes me feel safe, so if it's alright I'd like to ask for support.
Recently, I lost my best friend and companion in a rabbit named VinBun. He was my light. My life. My everything. He kept me strong, he kept me going, even though I've suffered from mental illnesses and suicidal thoughts throughout my entire life. Just before losing him, however, I brought a hamster named Dinkle. When VinBun passed, he was my support. He carried on keeping my strength up, and while I have quite a few animals now, none of them really compare to him. None of them make me feel so good.
I'm writing this because his time will be over too, soon. Hamsters don't live long, and we've already had him for over a year and a half.
The reason I think this also is because he's changed. He's stopped eating as much a usual. He's losing his eyesight, and has stopped proper grooming. He even bit me the other day, which he hasn't done since I first picked him up.
I'm so scared of losing him. I can't stand the thought of waking up without him by my side, smiling happily at me with his goofy little expression.
I don't want him to die. I love him so much. I'm not ready to lose another. I don't have the will power to cope with it. I'm so scared.
Would it be possible to get any advice on the situation? Maybe links to anything that can help me?
I don't know how I'll deal with this again. I really really don't.