I'm so devistated I don't know how to get through the day. I lost my little Bear Kiity last night. He was only 9, and had sudden renal failure that did not respond to treatment and the vet called and said he was in so much pain.. so he put him to sleep without me being there- I said I didn't want him to suffer. I have so much overwhelming guilt. He was a constant part of my everyday life, so woven into everthing..holidays, birthdays- everthing. The past year for me has been so difficult and now this. Where do I even begin? I moved to a small town and don't know anyone, and my husband thinks my grief is "over the top" I feel so alone. I think my soul is going to weep forever.