thank you so much for your heartfelt reply. and i am so sorry for the loss of your best friend!! our babies are in heaven frolicking together, pain free, happy, not paralyzed, but 100% able to run, jump, move around without assistance! happy!!
to tell you the truth, i could not afford the surgery either....it cost me almost $5,000 and it ended up killing her. i am looking for a second job to pay off this debt in 6 months.
your kind words mean a lot.....and do not hate yourself...our babies know we did everything we possibly could within our power...look, i did surgery and it did nothing but take her life. i will take comfort in knowing our babies are safe and whole, pain free, and happy.......
Hi Rosie's Mom,
I'm so sorry for your loss of precious Rosie. I fully understand how you feel about trying to hard and it not working anyway. My Golden Retriever Murphy went into an animal specialty hospital June 6. On June 11 they told me the only way to figure out what was wrong and cure him was to do surgery June 12. They did, put in 2 feeding tubes in his belly to try and get him nourishment, he was having hyperbaric oxygen therapy, multiple IV medications, everything possible that could be done. I was allowed to visit him on June 16 and he wasn't himself at all. He laid on the floor next to me so I joined him there for an hour. On June 17 his head doctor called and said he had taken a wonderful turn, was up and asking to go outside, bright and cheerful, taking walks, etc. He was to come home June 19 and I was so excited! At 2:30 in the afternoon on June 18 the doctor called and said to get there immediately. Murphy was dying and would soon be in terrible pain. I rushed to his side. He was wheeled into the Quiet Room as he could no longer get up or lift his head but he did wag his tail at me. His kidneys were failing, everything was crashing. I stayed with him for awhile and then he was put to sleep in my arms. Fortunately he seemed very peaceful the entire time I was with him. I spent over $13,000 for those 13 days and question myself constantly about having done the right thing at every turn. Did I agree to too much, should I have brought him home when I visited June 17, and on and on. I hope he knows I did everything humanly possible to save him and that I didn't abandon him there where he would have been so frightened.
I read what the therapist said to Kris. I hope some day I can forgive myself. I love that boy more than I've ever loved before and it has destroyed me. I hope you can find peace knowing you did all you could.
Murphy's Mom (Kathryn)