My sincere condolences on the loss of your precious Sammy. I am so sorry to hear what happened to your cat friend and want you to know that your situation is very close to what happened to me and I can absolutely feel your pain. I too feel as though my heart has been ripped right out. My wonderful boy, Brad, went missing Sept. 3rd and has not been found. I have pictured over and over the same horrendous tragedy happening to him, or a predator ending his life as there are coyotes in the area where he went missing.
Also, I have been consumed with guilt over his disappearance and it has helped when others have reassured me that the guilt is misplaced as I would never knowingly have placed him in harm's way. From the love you have expressed I know that you too would never have knowingly brought your Sammy to harm so please be gentle with yourself. It is a journey when working your way through your grieving time and it is a journey that all of those on this forum understand.
Thank you, it is a really tough time and it is horrible when they go missing because naturally you do think the worse, even when people try to be optimistic for you. I try to be strong as I don't feel many around me understand how much pets really do provide benefits to you, as you do to them. I'm slowly coming to terms with the situation but there will always be that piece of my heart missing with him. I am grateful I got closure so I'm not left with false hope of him coming back, like I can't imagine how you feel as everyday I guess you have some small hope he strolls in like nothing has happened. I still try and imagine that's the case with my Sam but the microchip doesn't lie, so I need to face that reality.