I know. I didn't feel that so much at first, but I did more as time went by.
The bond between my girl and I is so strong. But there would be many days when I felt I couldn't "find" her.
Then there would be days when I could "find" her (inside myself somehow.) And I felt my Heart open, and my love go out.
But those days when she seemed so far away were hard, because it felt like something was slipping away. And the memories of what we did felt like faded photographs -two-dimensional somehow.
Those things did frighten me too.
Empty days and nights....no connection....not one dream to remember.
But through all the years since she's gone, every now and again she will return maybe not for long, but just to show me without any doubt that SHE hasn't forgotten.
So I have learned to live on that faith and trust in her. It's amazing. I can't find her, but when she can SHE will find me, showing me that they haven't really gone -not irrevocably, and not forever.
It helps me with my fears of complete loss of a loved one and dear things to my Soul, and I think they may all do that, only we don't always recognise it when they do. We might just think we are having a "sentimental moment" when their contact comes in towards us (?)
I think she's showing me not only what she does, but probably what others do too, when there is a strong bond of love
I also think that her showing me occasionally, that she remembers, and loves me is a sign that she is waiting for me for sure. Otherwise why would she keep reassuring me she's still "there", still remembers, still loves?
And not to worry because on that level there is no forgetting.