I have to put my dog to sleep this Thursday and it is the hardest thing I could imagine.
- I adopted my 6 year old Pitbull Rosie 2 years ago in one of the hardest times of my life. I was in college and looking back now, not ready for a dog, but I completely adore her and she has become my best friend. She came from the humane society and it was absolute love at first sight. I soon learned that she had very serious dog aggression a few days after bringing her home, and hired a trainer, which helped but didn’t solve her issues completely. She has always been completely fine with people until this past November when she lunged at my roommate who came into my room and bit her on the face. It was awful and completely traumatic for everyone. Rosie was taken by animal control and forced to do a 10 day quarantine and then I got to pick her up. It was heat wrenching, she was skinny, filthy, and miserable. I couldn’t sleep the majority of the 10 days wondering if she was scared or confused or waiting for me. I paid the hospital bills for my roommate and my dog and I started working with her trainer even more. I moved out of the house, and back home with my parents after the bite. I took a semester off from college because I couldn’t leave her alone. I didn’t care about the consequences and the toll it took on my lifestyle. I ended a serious relationship over keeping rosie because my partner felt I shouldn’t have her. To me Rosie was everything and still is. I was going to make it work. I had to, it’s Rosie. Friday one of my biggest fears happened, while I was gone my mom took her out and she slipped her slip lead (which was trainer recommended) and ran into the neighbors yard and attacked their dog, thankfully he is okay. I feel so awful about this for their dog, and for my parents who took us in and are now in a incredibly uncomfortable situation with their neighbor. This is the 3rd time she has gotten in a fight with another dog in two years, even with me trying to take as many precautions as possible. She has a human bite history. I love this dog more than anything and feel so incredibly guilty. I feel like she doesn’t deserve to die. My parents have said they want her out of the house and she is a liability which is understandable. I don’t have the money to move right now. I live in constant fear of another incident happening and am so incredibly attached to her. It is very hard to find a rescue to take a dog with a bite history and dog aggression, and even if I did, she would be unadoptable. I feel so guilty about the possibility of giving her to strangers where I have no control of what happens to her. The thought of this happening again haunts me, and her ending up in a shelter being taken away from me again. I have been unable to go to work because no one in my family feels comfortable taking her outside to use the bathroom except me. The thought of her attacking another dog and killing it or another person is terrifying. She is so so sweet and loving to me, but she flips a switch when she is around dogs. Her trainer agrees that this is the best option. The most humane one for her. She has lived a happy two years with me. I would rather end it on the best note possible and give her an amazing last day, then to have to surrender her and her be scared and lonely and most likely euthanized with strangers, or for her to live out the rest of her days in a small kennel. I can’t risk this happening again. My sweet girl is laying beside me right now sleeping and I can’t stop crying and feeling like I am betraying her in the most awful way possible. I truly love this girl. She has changed my life for the best, and I am so heart broken.