the last almost 14 yrs of my life came to a stop for my boys (have 3 just had to put down 1,Baby) from 34 to now 47,I stopped going out,I blew off plans,I’m a huge movie person and I barely went,when I did go mom was there w them,they were almost NEVER left alone,my friend just told me yesterday “I thought you lost your mind” and then i have a aunt and uncle that aren’t animal lovers and they’d say :you need to get a life” ya know what? The love and affection they gave me was my life,THEY were my life!!! Then I’d think to myself why is what I’m doing w my life bothering everybody? If it dont bother me,WHY is it bothering you? If i was out and I’d hit traffic,id go crazy cuz that was minutes my Boys were waiting for me,even tho they were w my mom who they love and gives them treat non stop plus they knew how to work her they had her fooled lol!!! And like Achilly said “I’d gladly do it again” and I still am I have 2 boys still here,one is his liter mate and the other has the same dad.As a mater of fact,i looked into his liter mate brothers eyes last night and said “Baby if you are in there please know I love you so much,i miss you so much and I’m so sorry for what I had to do”.after 3 days I finally wanted to eat,i opened my fridge and there was his last plate of food that he didnt eat,that ended that!!! I dont want to eat,I dont want to shower,I definitely dont want to sleep,this is pain ive never felt...and again like Achilly said “I hope he knew what he meant to us” God only knows how I’m hurting and missing him.I actually want to call vets office and see if hes still there and if so go see him and hold him again...
your broken friend,
I feel for you as well. Your pets are your love. It never stops. They would not want you hurt . I’m trying to remind myself of this every time I sink low into horrific sadness . Hardest thing and I’ve lost ...and I’ve both parents At a young age, brother, sister and my other dog. I have zero immediate family members left so I put alot into my baby dog who was only 4. One thing is he loved me didn’t want me hurt...wouldn’t want me to suffer. My little selfless dog was my protector in so many ways. I’m not letting the love he gave me be for nothing. I’m here with you and I can’t shake off losing my dog..maybe never. I got a right to feel sad and down..... My will to keep going has definitely been affected . I keep saying would my dog want that for me? No he would not. This and my love for him is all I have to hang in to. It’s really really hard to say the least. I just want you to know I’m right here with you!!!