Dear Bob, I know how utterly terrifying it is. It is unthinkable, that they will have to "leave us".
It was like that with me and my Misty. I love her and have always loved her, like nothing and no-one else. When she lived she was my sister, my Soul, my purpose, my real true friend, my joy, fun, common sense....the only thing that made sense to me after a life which -for the main part- didn't. I had always been a misfit, never found any kind of true niche amongst people, though I was friendly. Nothing worked....until Misty came. She melded with me and transformed me.
Then suddenly, she died. I had about 1 week-10 days' warning, and only really faced it for the last 5 days, as she was behaving very well....I kept thinking the vet could be wrong with his diagnosis, until the ultrasound confirmed it.
After she passed, I was literally nothing. Could barely move, eat, or relate to this world.
I did not believe in life after death. Also, although I liked the "Rainbow Bridge" imagery, I reckoned it was just made of sugar, to coat a very bitter pill. A little fairy tale to pacify us. But not really, literally, true.
How wrong I was.
After 1 month of complete submission to a grief I was sure had no comforts, I was shocked by an event.
Misty (the Inner Misty -not the physical form) came rushing in to me one evening, and absolutely knocked me sideways. Other events took place after that which were solid proof, in my opinion, of their survival of what we call "death" in the first place, and in the second place, their desire to keep in touch with us, and their undying, unconditional love.
I don't mean to go on and on....I just want you to know that they are much much more than the weak and failing bodies they temporarily inhabit. They are their Inner Selves -and those things are terrifically real. I know that all the time Misty was with me what was it I truly loved? The colour of her fur? The shape of her belly? Her eyes?....Well yes I loved all those things so very much, but what I really loved was HER. The unseen Soul part of her that made her "Misty".
That doesn't die. And I am grateful to my sweet girl for showing me that. She also showed me our relationship does not have to end. It still hasn't ended -and it's been 16 months now since she went.
She showed me how to trust when I sensed her strongly, and not to think it was all in my mind. (It obviously wasn't!)
Yes she seems far away sometimes, but returns always. My unconditional love for her Spirit allows her to do what she needs to do, go where she needs to go. And knows her love will never ever forget me. She taught me those things.
She was glad to leave her failing sick body. When I actually touched her in the next world, she had a body identical to the one she left behind.
Please allow Buster to take his spirit journey when he needs to, and trust the love.
Many, many blessings to both your Spirits.