jo0232
Two days ago I had to say goodbye to my beloved cat Eevee. She was my first pet, who I rescued from neighbors who weren't interested in finding a new home for her. Ever since that day 5 and a half years ago, we became inseparable. She was my little shadow, following me around the house, sleeping touching me every night, comforting me on my worst days. She was such a good girl, and I can't stop crying now that she's gone. I lost her to chronic kidney disease after a year and a half battle. I would have done anything to keep her here with me, and now my house and heart feel so empty. I still come home and look for you. I left your food bowl out in case you wanted to have one more bite. It's so hard to accept that you're gone. It's hard for me to even be in my apartment because it is too painful without you here. Everything reminds me of you.
I keep having flashbacks to her last day on earth, where she became so ill overnight that she couldn't stand. The way she cried if I left her sight to go to the bathroom. How she stared off into space as she took her last breath at the vet. It's haunting me, and I don't want to remember her suffering or sick. I feel overwhelmingly sad and I miss her so much. I hope she knows how much I love and miss her. This is so hard.
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jo0232
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Here is a photo of my baby girl celebrating my birthday this year.
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Purzel
Jo,

I am so sorry you lost your sweet Eevee to this truly awful desease. I know how hard to accept this all is for you now as everything is still so raw. It will take a while and all you feel now belongs to the grieving process. You are not alone, Jo - we are all here for you and have gone or go through the same painful experiences. It is good you came here to this forum, this is a safe place to be.

My heart goes out to you
Silvia (with Max forever in my heart)

[hundi]


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jo0232
Purzel wrote:
Jo,

I am so sorry you lost your sweet Eevee to this truly awful desease. I know how hard to accept this all is for you now as everything is still so raw. It will take a while and all you feel now belongs to the grieving process. You are not alone, Jo - we are all here for you and have gone or go through the same painful experiences. It is good you came here to this forum, this is a safe place to be.

My heart goes out to you



Thank you for your understanding and kind words. It is comforting to know that other people understand how you feel. I wish all of our fur babies could be around forever.
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Lamont
You've come to a safe place to share your grief. Your girl was certainly a beautiful cat. ( I am partial to brown tabbies)
Come back when you feel the need.

L
Bertie's Daddy
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exburt
Wow, to have a cat that let you put a party hat on! I know what our cats would do to us if we tried to do something like that. I can see why you miss Eevee terribly. From the picture, I wish I had the chance to make her acquaintance and shake her paw. Tolerant kitty. 

I know it sucks now, but it'll get better. If you're feeling overcome with despair, you have the support of this understanding community! I wish you all the best.  
B Weinstein
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Mackysmum
Iam very sorry you lost your girl , she is super cute and its so odd she let you put a party hat on her , easy going kitty .
I understand your pain the shock and scary strong emotions in that first week are unbelievable , nothing i can say will make it go away, but know we are all here for you on here and the pain will ease .
I lost my dog macky it will be 3 weeks this Thursday and I'm still trying to wrap my head around him being gone , i still at times think that I need to walk him , it takes time i guess .
Your girl knew you loved her that's the special thing about our pets they live us no matter what and they know how much we love them .
Our babies are in peace now no pain or anxiety and how much do we love them by having to make the hardest decision of our life , we make it cause we love them so much we can't see them suffer, that to me is our way we show them just how endlessly and deeply we love them .
Be strong and let your self feel how you feel cry , scream , shout or not just be .
Sending you hugs and strength for the coming day and weeks .
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