Hugs to you and I'm very sorry for your loss of Mr. Mercedes... I think there are going to be good and bad days, it's just part of the process. I think for those who are not completely sure they are in a happier place we will always have doubts and anyway, he is not with you anymore so that is not much compensation for not having him by your side. Even with my doubts I still talk to my Wizberry and it gives me some peace. I have my moods when I'm cursing everything... a god or whatever is out there that I'm not sure if I believe in at times that took him from me, the one I loved more than anything even though I prayed over and over again to save him and take me instead, but then he would've been without me. And although I'm living on without him I think it would have been too much for him not to have me maybe.
Mr. Mercedis knows how much you loved him, trust me, you were his everything too and you didn't kill him, you helped him not suffer anymore, it sounds like he was very ill and nothing more could be done. I feel the same way about Wiz that I killed him and I didn't do enough, but I loved him more than anything, he was my everything too. But I know in reality I spent the last two years of my life taking care of him and having almost NO social life basically. And I would keep doing that if he could be with me forever. I guess we are just going to feel guilty no matter what we did or didn't do.
My beloved sweet Tess August 1999 - February 21 2001
My beloved loyal Byron March 1998 - April 28 2008 My sweet beloved girlie Angelina April 2001- September 2012 Me & my sweet beloved Wizberry forever 1998- April 21, 2016 My sweet beloved Snow Goddess Sybil girlie April 2001- May 11,2018