Dear Jakey's Mom
My baby boy has been gone for over 5 weeks, and I still suddenly burst into tears. I have pictures of all of my 4 footed children (past and present) in a slideshow as my screensaver, and sometimes when one of Shadow's pictures comes up, I just bawl like a baby. I truly understand your pain, sweetie - I'm devastated over my guy. I've lost other 4 footed children in the past, but none have affected me the way the loss of my little man has. I'm told it gets better. At least my crying jags are happening less frequently, so I suppose it is true. The thing that has worked best for me is to remember everything your boy did that made you laugh. The crying is somehow less bitter that way. At least I've quit screaming, "I want my puppy!!!" Well, mostly quit. It helps that I have my 2 girls, and both of them commiserate with me and kiss away my tears. Their personalities are starting to change as well, with Shadow gone. They are becoming more loving. Another thing that has helped me is to take all of his things and put them somewhere that you can get to them easily, but they aren't right in front of you all the time. My Shadow was also my service dog, so I'm doing a shadow box with his vest, his collar and a good photo. I think it will help bring me closure. I hope so. Hold onto your memories and remember the love.