Tom, I am so sorry for you loss. What a wonderful person you are to have saved your Sadie from that puppy mill! It's so sad what some beautiful little souls have to endure. The day that I had to say goodbye to my Bubbie, I came home and got rid of all of the things that reminded me of his sickness. All of the insulin bottles, the syringes, the bags of sub q fluids, the medicine he took to help his tummy. I didn't want to remember him sick. I wanted to remember him heathly and happy. When you have a special needs fur baby, you are left feeling lost when they are gone. Your whole world revolved around them. I feel like I didn't pay enough attention to my other cat Fritzi. She is a beautiful 16 year old Calico and I found out today that she has cancer. It hasn't even been a week since my Bubbie left and now I have to face that I will lose her too. I am numb right now. All I can say is cherish every moment you have with your pets because they can be taken from you in a moment. You were a good daddy to Sadie and I am sure she knows how much you loved her. You gave her a home and a wonderful life that she would not have received without you. Take comfort in that. I wish you peace and I hope that your pain will subside and be replaced with all of the happy memories you have with Sadie.