I am so sorry for your loss.... Biggie is a very beautiful dog!
I keep reading all the posts in hopes of coming to terms with my own grief and guilt and the post by Sara was so comforting... "How suddenly surprised they are to find themselves on the other side but with a knowing when it instantly happens that this was to be the case and are excited about being back home. They do not have a sense of confusion or alarm or doubt about what has happened. There is a certain knowing instantly at the time of death that they are going home and that this was what was meant to be. They would love to be able to explain this to the loved ones they have left behind so that it would help with the trauma and the shock that families are experiencing." I feel like I failed my TinkerBelle by not protecting her and like you I just keep wishing I could go back to that fateful morning and do things differently.... it has only been 12 days and those final moments are still very vivid for me! I agree with everyone... we have to leave the guilt behind and remember all the good times and I hope and pray for everyone here that in time we all can! My thoughts are with you during this time and I hope you are able to find peace and comfort!
I love and miss you TinkerBelle! "Sometimes there is a dog who is so special, she is able to wrap herself so completely around your heart it is impossible to tell where you begin and she ends."